Unpacking Our Childhoods and Family Dynamics

The deepest work we can do is unpacking our childhoods and family dynamics.

I spent this past week in Boston where I grew up to celebrate the healing work Iโ€™ve been doing around my ancestry and spend time with my family.

One morning, while I was meditating I could feel my mom come onto the balcony and start to take pictures of me. I felt all this anger come up.

Instead of acting on it, I meditated on it.

I realized it came deep from my childhood when she would barge into my room and i felt like I had no personal privacy. I did breath work and allowed myself to grunt out all the rage..

Then I found the neutrality ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ That no matter how many people are watching, I can always drop in and meditate.

From there, I found compassion for why she was taking the photo in the first place. She loves me and wants to remember me being here. It wasnโ€™t out of malicious intent to disturb my inner peace. And even when she barged into my room when I was a kid, it was to make sure I was safe.

I let myself feel that love.

I used to think meditation was about staying calm at all times. Now I realize it is a tool to transmute shadow emotions ๐Ÿง˜๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ

Instead of being pissed that she ruined my meditation, I used it as a powerful tool to go even deeper.

This may happen for you with loud construction, an ambulance, a child annoying you or repetitive thoughts.

Rather than seeing it as disturbing your meditation, see it as enhancing it.

I now realize every shadow emotion we experience is gifted to us as our opportunity to go, feel and heal deeper๐Ÿ’™

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